This is the second time in six months someone I've known has committed suicide. I would lie and say I can't even fathom the desperation that someone must feel to do such a thing, but the truth is that there have been two instances in my life where for a split second I felt that desperation. The difference between me and them is after a few moments of feeling that awful lowness, I was able to see through to the other side - it was far off, and not an easy place to get to, but I could see it. These two friends, they couldn't see that far.
It breaks my heart. Two good people gone forever, and two worlds of family and friends who are forever changed. I know others have posted before about this same subject, most recently Shepherd of the Gurneys. There isn't really anything I can add to whats been said already.
But seriously. If you ever find yourself facing this same desperation, please know that there is an end to the tunnel. It might be a long way off, and it will be a difficult journey, but there is another side. Nothing anyone can say will make it instantly better, but please. Just hold on a while longer. There is hope.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline